Nightmares of a breaking relation were
replaced now by dreams, and the love, if not blooming, was at least
given a chance by the two of us.
But what is
written, is inevitable.
It wasn’t too long
before we realized we were trying too hard to mend something that was broken
par repair.
Necessary as well
as unnecessary aids, advices, assistance and support were pouring in, but well,
a couple, madly in love was splitting up, and nothing, and no one could undo
the damage done.
No fuss, no anger,
no hatred, it was decided, from now we are just a couple of amazing friends,
nothing more, but nothing less.
Of course it was
stupid.
It was unsaid for a few days, but the we were cards of the same pack... we belonged together. Our imperfections, compensated by the other
Tries to save a
dying relationship turned into desperate attempts, as its heart and soul were
now diminished by the second. The relation died long back. Reason for dragging
its carcass for this long was to not willing to give up on each other so
easily. We had seen in each other what love is... how could we give that up?
Soon enough we
realized we were doing nothing, but just digging a deeper pit for us, coming
out of which, would be nothing less than impossible.
••
“What are we
doing? We are not even going out anymore!” said Lia, dressing up.
“I know. But I
feel so calm when I am around you. And even the thought of touching anyone else
is nothing short of repulsive” I said, hugging her, making her sit next to me.
“But this is wrong
baby. If we both know that we are not yet ready for a relation, don’t you think
that we should at least give it shot? Trying to move ahead? You can’t imagine
the guilt at times. And if I was doing this with someone else, sleeping with
him, not being his girlfriend, I would have felt really cheap about myself” she
said.
“I guess you’re
right. I know what you mean. Okay let’s try. Let’s try to move on. ‘cause we
don’t have a single shot being together in future, then why to be a hung up.” I
said, looking at her, thinking, would I have to let this one go?
“Don’t be so sure
what future holds for us. No one predicted that we both could be together,
ever. We did. And no one predicted that we’re ever going to break up. We did.
Let’s just say, I hope the future is better than the present.” She said, with
tears slowly rolling down her cheeks.
This is what
happened at a mere thought of not being together.
Well, the plan was
put into immediate effect and we had now stopped meeting. Phone calls though
were still allowed.
Those too were reduced soon enough.
I could look brave
during the day when my cell buzzed with a message of Lia, telling me how hard
it was to live away from each other, as I had to face people, but with sun
setting, every night had started seeming longer than usual, abnormal.
With the option of
us being together removed, what followed seemed normal.
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