Opposite
of love isn’t hatred, but indifference. For a simple reason too. You love
someone, your days go in thinking about that one person. You hate someone, and
time flies by, despising them. In either ways, doorway to our world is shut to
everyone else.
A
smile is powerful. Realizing that upon losing mine, it was a lesson well
learnt.
Although
too soon to say that I was happy, it was a start, for an effort to not put
myself down anymore.
Several
failed attempts and I had chosen wisely to not give up and keep trying.
Curtains
were slowly drawing on this story of Lia. But yet, they weren’t just about
closing!
Pivotal
points of life are crucial in just our heads more often than not. And I was,
for now past all those crucial make it or break it situations.
I
needed a break. And life was just seeming to get back to normal.
No I
would never forget Lia. She was that person who paused time for me by doing
nothing more than simply walking by my side. She also was the one who made me
wish I was dead. No I would never forget her, but that doesn’t mean I’d love
her forever.
Although,
no hope, a feeling lot like love still had its place in my heart which was
slowly but surely diminishing by the day. Nevertheless, at this moment, it was
still there, the light, flickering but not extinguished.
••
Starting
to enjoy company of friends, the outings were more common than they ever had
been since years now. What was not common was what was to happen.
An
evening like any other, the tides were turning into my favor now, when I opened
the door to the bell rung by someone talking to whom had been next to rare
since the ‘final breakup’ with Lia.
George.
Why do we let the end of one relation
end all the ones that had strings connected with the one gone sour? Because
more often than naught they remind us of a world of pain which was hard enough
to get out off to begin with. These ties could pull you right back in the time
warp. Or so I feared.
“Hi George. Long time! How have you
been?”
“I am doing just fine buddy. How are
you? Jeanette and I were bothered about you.”
“Why?”
“Well you were the one deeper in love”
Janette chipped in.
“Nah. Those are things of the past. So
how are you both doing? And hey how’s Lia?”
Their eyes back to that blasé gaze.
“Don’t worry I’m not in love with her.
It was she who turned her back to love. The one who broke all faiths this time”
I said, hoping I don’t flow in the emotions.
“You got that right... All faiths.”
Dejected, George replied.
“What do you mean?”
“No nothing. You really wanted this to
work out. Didn’t you?” Asked George.
“Nope. That’s what we wanted. That’s
why I making out with Soundarya didn’t faze her confidence in me, and her
kissing Rohit was barely a concern to me.”
“They did more than just kiss you know”
he murmured.
“Doesn’t matter!” I snapped back. The
way I had when Rohit spoke of her this way.
“It does Suraj! She didn’t just break
your faith. She battered ours as well! You think she’s single now? You think so
buddy? No. She’s with someone else now. And that someone is the one nemesis
I’ve ever had. She knew of it since day one of our friendship. And she won’t
tell us. I read her messages call it luck or the other way around. I wouldn’t
tell you what those messages were or sleep would delude you. All I can however
say is that those messages were not of friendships.”
My heart beat sinking, my fingers
intertwined hard enough to break each other now, I gestured Jeanette to not
stop George.
“Yes Suraj. She is sleeping with
someone else. And she too is way past this "Relationships" stuff. What does it tell you?”
This wasn’t unreal. I was smiling, and
there were no tears. This was happening. George in his boyish way had given me
an elixir for life, another shot at it.
